tick-tock-tick-tock!

Tick tock tick tock!

Looking forward to 28th of May but at the same time I feel abit anxious.

How did years fly this fast, how did the years speed close to my 27th year?

This morning I had to keep reminding myself of my last post. That when a need presses hard on my heart, I will make hard stops for prayer, I will verbalize my needs to GOD. I realized I can’t carry the weight of my world and live, there are things that I just can’t handle on my own and I have learnt to be meek enough to take them at His feet.

When I heard the enemy’s whispers of how far off I am  from my dreams, I reminded myself the promises God has spoken over my life. The very words my Father whispered to me when I didn’t know how to hope again. God is not man that He should lie, He is God, the holy one of Israel who looks to His word to perform it.It is He who said;

“For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts than your thoughts.10″For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven, And do not return there without watering the earth And making it bear and sprout, And furnishing seed to the sower and bread to the eater; 11So will My word be which goes forth from My mouth; It will not return to Me empty, Without accomplishing what I desire, And without succeeding in the matter for which I sent it.Isaiah 55:10

I will hold on to His word and promises over my life, I will speak His word over my life over and over again until it becomes one with me, until I become one with His word. And of His word He says:

“keep my words And treasure my commandments within you. 2Keep my commandments and live, And my teaching as the apple of your eye. 3Bind them on your fingers; Write them on the tablet of your heart. Proverbs 7:2

I have stickers all over my bedroom of His RHEMA word, because His word gives me life, sustains me,  replenishes me, edifies me and builds me up.

So, my birthday is almost here, and I will take my notebook and pen and write down all of His gifts, I will chronicle His mercies, His goodness over my life, I will write all that I am grateful for. He has been more than gracious.

To my FATHER, who intricately wrought me in my mother’s womb, I love YOU more than any advancement I can make in life, than any gift You can give me, I love You than life itself. Thank you for 26th year and I pray for a 27th full of You!

Beloved daughter!

Got my mind made up!

He is more than an answered prayer;

I have had my mind made up that every time a need presses hard on my heart, I will stop and whisper a prayer to the God of universe, of the stars, the sun, the angels and the things we see and things we see not. Faith is better than doubt, and saying a prayer is faith, and it calls in rest. I have injured, wounded and squeezed my heart out of life by worrying. Worry kills slowly, takes life slowly and Christ died once for us to have life, and that life is brought by humble submission to His word, and Stops of prayer to surrender what we can’t handle, what only He can do.

I have offered prayers, there are certain petitions I have repeatedly made known to Him, and I will keep praying, and this grows my faith. I don’t know how long it will take for God to answer but even if it takes longer than pleasant or comfortable, God is more than an answered prayer. He is the Father of all creation; He is the holy God who cleanses me clean even when my sins stink high, He is the God who ignites my heart and puts it on fire with His love. He is the God who whispers comfort in my depths when no one else can comfort me or heal my woundedness, He is the great I AM , who was and is to come. He is God who gave up His son to pave my way to His bosom, my resting place…I am totally satisfied in Him.

I have also made up my mind to drown and suffocate the voice of the enemy, to keep weeding off that faith may sprout and blossom I have made up my mind about what I am going to do and not do. However, I am only human and I have left provision that if my legs would steer off to the wrong path that my Father may hasten to guide me back.

Say a ,and not doubt,

Say it again when doubt knocks

Pray and wade off despair

Pray even with your heart, till strength comes back

Pray even more fervently

This is faith, and faith pleases the Father.

The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much. James 5:16

 

Grace for the road!