Ascending the mountain of the Lord

Who shall ascend the mountain of the Lord?

And who shall stand in His holy place?

Psalms 24:3

Its only day 2 of deliberately seeking God and the things He’s doing only tell me He has been waiting on me. I have attempted similar pursuits before and every time the Lord makes them memorable. Each has been unique and each has propelled me higher spiritually. .and for these wonderful experiences, I thank God. It is by His grace and His grace alone! So, who shall ascend the mountain of the Lord? Who shall stand in His Holy place?

Psalm 24:3

I kick start this with David’s prayer in psalms 139. 23.

Search me, O God, and know my heart

Try me and know my thoughts

And see if there be any wicked way in me

And lead me in the way everlasting

I have never climbed a (physical) mountain and I hope before the year ends, I can bring my friends together and do a hike, but one thing I know for sure, you cannot travel heavy and keep a good pace. Anything weighing heavily on me had and has to go! And as I drop the weights, I feel God take me higher in Him. This is just day 2, I am excited about this journey, am expectant and I know each and every one of these He has already written in His book

Thy eyes beheld my unformed substance

In Thy book were written everyone of them

The days that were formed for me

When as yet there was none of them

Psalms 139:16

Seeking God

Whom have I in heaven but You?
And there is nothing upon the earth that I desire besides You
My flesh and heart may fail but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Psalms 73:25-26

It was a time of worship in my church, eyes closed , hands raised and heart reaching towards God. I was hungry and needy, I needed more of Him. It was those times you know that you know if God gave you everything you desire or even placed the world in your hands, you would feel short changed if He withdrew from you. He is my inner most and my greatest desire and nothing else will do! So, as I worshiped, I remembered reading from this lady who had gone to Katoloni prayer center and on the 7th day, the Lord visited her. That story was too beautiful to say the least and it did more than impress beauty, it aroused a deeper aching for God.

And in the midst of worship and my inner dialogue His gentle soft voice fell on my heart, not audible but unmissable. It fell strongly in my heart and I was reminded, “If you seek me diligently, you will find me” “I am a rewarder of those who diligently seek me” “Take one step towards me and I will take many towards you” and that was an invite I had to take.
[Day one of ascending the mountain of God]
I know that I am going to do this, by His grace and by His grace alone. And I know it’s going to be beautiful. Every time I set apart my time to seek His face, He always makes it memorable.

So, for you aching for more of Him, let’s journey together and share if we may.

When we fast, we say to God, “more than our stomachs want food, our souls want You!”
“The weakness for our hunger for God is not because He is unsavory, but because we keep ourselves stuffed with other things”

“Endless nibbling at the table of the world dulls our hunger for God”

Visit Desiring God Website to get a free copy of the book “A hunger for God” and many others by the same author.

God bless you as you seek Him!

Shedding skin

The last couple of years have been years of shedding skin,and stripping that which makes me skewed. There are times He stripped me off and I rushed to the bin and picked up the tatters and sew together another covering. I know He looked at me, took pity and He let me be because how do you strip off your young one who’s wailing and scared and trying to hide her nakedness with the last tatters of her garments? How do you look at her tears stained face, her eyes that take you to her shattered and desolate heart and take her only security? The only thing I clung on to was my covering, it was tattered but at least it covered my nakedness.

Clothed in sin, insecurities, fears, pride, vanity and layers of hurts that had become a warm covering, I felt it was cruel that He would uncover me, it was unkind of Him to expose my nakedness and it hurt and I couldn’t believe He even did it out of love No, I don’t understand tough love, I can’t comprehend it and I don’t favor it. I mean how could I even look at Him as a Father, He was just God and He had to get His way.

But the strangest thing happened; deep in my spirit, I revered Him, loved Him and I had some meekness to be grateful for the gift of salvation, and once upon a contemplation; He overshadowed my senses and I felt Him grieve over my hurt. I also know He wept that it hurt me so. On that certain day, I was lying down on the floor, my heart hurt like it was on fire and I felt Him, I felt Him comfort me..His love became sure and it was established in my heart.

Psalms 56:8

You have kept count of my tossing and put my tears in Your bottle-are they not in Thy book?

I read that word in the sequence of my stripping and I dug deeper into God’s heart. Christ cried to God when the hour of His death approached and it grieved our Father’s heart deeply that Jesus had to partake of that cup but He allowed it that we may be reconciled back to Him. When I now think of my salvation, I want to guard it with all my strength, Christ travailed for it with His own soul and we are the fruit. I can’t take that lightly!

In His love I started to believe and I started letting go of the tattered coverings, I believed Him and let Him strip me naked without throwing tantrums, wailing, grudging or even guarding. I was given to His will. If I be naked let me be..and naked I stood before Him and I surrendered, and I sang I new song. I asked Him to cover me, to clothe me with His beauty and splendor, to adorn me inwardly for my natural beauty is vain if I be uncomely on the inside. I sang and worshipped and I received my miracle.

Ezekiel 16:8

When I passed by you again and looked upon you, behold, you were at the age for love; and I spread my garment over you and covered your nakedness.

Ezekiel 16:13

Thus you were decked with gold and silver; and your raiment was of fine linen, and silk, and embroidered cloth.

we can light up the world!

After a really long time, I finally got around to blogging again. Every time I read Ann’s blog I feel refreshed and rejuvenated, Clemence’s blog gets me inspired to create beauty around me, now and then in my rounds on the internet I get a good meal of an article, some so savoury that I thank God after reading.

Last year was a very sweet and sour year for me. There was a time of constant pain that felt too much and a time heaven sang over me, lifted me up and placed me on a pillowy cloud. On those dark days, I hanged on to Mwende’s blog I looked forward to every post and I did feed and from her blog I linked up with Wambui of Wambui’s musings and here I fed some more, and those two blogs strengthened me through a dark season.

Now, it’s no surprise that I feel obliged to share ,to give , to muster the courage to believe in the light my Father has lit in me, to believe that Jesus has placed a cistern that flows of living water that can flow to others and heal them, to believe in Him that asks me to reach out and hold hands and form strong chords with other young women, to truly believe that His spirit can weave in these words and minister to someone.

“Self doubt has killed more dreams than failure” I recently read that quote somewhere. I know that self-doubt is self-sabotage and sometimes we doubt ourselves and doubt God’s ability to work through us, to minister healing to the whole lot in the body of Christ that are bent in pain and suffering, to speak grace and tell of His heart that aches to take under His wings the estranged and the lost
I have not a lot together, I know my imperfections and because of them I need grace everyday and it’s also because I am not perfect that I get to see His awesome power overshadow my frailties.

let’s light our candles!